Friday, November 5, 2010

休言万事转头空,未转头时是梦。

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休言万事转头空,未转头时是梦。

白居易说:“百年随手过,万事转头空”。苏轼则比之有更深层次的认识:“休言万事转头空,未转头时是梦”。欧公仙逝了,固然一切皆空,而活在世上的人,又何尝不是在梦中,终归一切空无。不要轻言东坡消极,或许正是心怀此念,他才得以坦然面对纷至沓来的政治打击:人生既然不过虚幻,政治失意与挫折,算得什么呢?故而陈廷焯《白雨斋词话》卷六云:“‘休言万事转头空。未转头时皆梦’追进一层,唤醒痴愚不少。”

苏轼受佛家思想影响颇深,习惯用佛家的色空观念看待事物。白居易诗云“百年随手过,万事转头空”,苏轼则更进一步认识到“休言万事转头空,未转头时是梦。”这种对整体人生的空幻、悔悟、淡漠感,这种携带某种禅意玄思的人生偶然的感喟,其中深深地埋藏着某种要求彻底解脱的出世意念。苏词中传达的这种独特的人生态度,是解读其作品的关键所在。

~baike.baidu.com/view/867074.htm


友人最近在和我谈话中送了我一句: “休言万事转头空,未转头时是梦”。是啊!既然百年随手过,万事转头空,休言万事转头空,未转头时是梦。最近也在看作家村上春樹 (Haruki Murakami) 的短篇小说, 有一篇也刚巧描绘了这一点。

现在的我又怎么知道此时此刻的我不是处于一段梦竟。。。

可是我为何感觉有如庄周。。。不知勤之梦为胡蝶与?胡蝶之梦为勤与?

又或许一场春蝶之梦本皆空。。。百年随手过,万事转头空,人生也不过如此而已。。。

Wednesday, September 8, 2010

[Book review]: Her Fearful Symmetry

Audrey Niffenegger, the author of The Time Traveler's Wife. That was what prompted me to pick up Her Fearful Symmetry.

I prefer The Time Traveler's Wife, it is more refreshing and intricately put together. Her Fearful Symmetry pales in comparison on closing the book, or so I thought. However the title was apt. I read that book idly, whenever I could find a breather in my hectic schedule. I finished it a couple of hours before bed time. While I slowly dozed off, there was a nuance in the plot that struck me. I froze and was jolted into full consciousness. For a split moment, I was filled with terror, much like an empty jug with water. I could feel the horror at the realisation of the extent we could go to sabotage and manipulate the lives of someone we can claim to love.

Spoiler alert:
Did Elspeth get herself pregnant on purpose so she would never be forgotten by her twin? That seems to match the hints in the beginning of the book when she mentioned how dying is like being erased. It seems as though the focus was on the twins, how they interacted with the various characters in the story but Elspeth was the strong silent focal point, she seemed to be overshadowed or sharing the stage at best but it is her I end up wondering about, even after I have closed the book.

The book is on obsession, on love? When we talk about loving other people, is it a mere extension or projection of the massive selfish love we have for ourselves?

Her Fearful Symmetry appears lacklustre at first but the darkness grows. I have to admit that in terms of writing, Audrey Niffenegger excels and as time progresses and I am allowed to digest the book, I retract my hasty judgement. The story slowly seeps in. The subtle layering grows increasingly evident, where each character has their purpose and multi-dimentional complexities, allowing you to question and wonder. It was impossible for me to love any one of them or hate any one of them and I laud Audrey Niffenegger for that.

It took me some time but I reach the conclusion that Her Fearful Symmetry is a brillant piece, in a different league from The Time Traveller's Wife. At least when you close the book, the take-away feeling is different, it was almost like they were from two separate authors. Her Fearful Symmetry lies on my shelf and it is as though the characters continues to live and breathe. They remain indelible in the realms of my imagination everytime I happen to glance upon that book.

Saturday, May 15, 2010

迷魂

墓石生青苔
鼓聲敲碎回憶錄
回音一刻劃心
磨滅溫柔
不停問
誰又在遠方煙雨楚楚處?
(2010)

Thursday, February 11, 2010

Bag of veined pulsing flesh

And then I feel like eating myself from the ankles up
so that I can turn myself inside out.
My humanity would be hidden with skin
while the world flees in terror
only to give me solitude within.

(2009)

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

On starting work in 2010

And so school for 2010 has started. I was relatively calmer compared to last year although I still lost sleep even though I didn't feel stressed at all.

After doing a stock check of my life, it is of great comfort to me to have an affirmation that I still love my job. However, these past few days, I've also realised that I love sleep more. Unfortunately, being a professional sleeper is not a recognised vocation.... and I do it so very well......

I hope that this year will be a good year, for one and all.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Repatriation of Hmongs

I was lounging on the chair idly, watching CNA when I caught sight of the scrolling words at the bottom of the screen. Thailand is planning to repatriate 4000 Hmongs back to Lao PDR. (Incidentally, it is not Laos but Lao PDR. There have been many gross misrepresentations of the name in the media. It would be good to not perpetuate it further if possible.)

Anyway, I was reading Refugee Manipulation not so long ago. 4000 refugees doesn't seem a lot when you compare it to a mass exodus of refugee in times of crisis. Two schools-worth of people, maybe?

When you are a refugee, you are meat. The term 'refugee' alone, grants you the status of a victim, you are merely waiting for a bully to appear. The Hmongs, now they are really a sad lot for an ethnic group.

After being recruited by the U.S to fight in the 'secret war' against the Vietnamese, the Hmongs are now 'betrayed' after dying for the U.S geopolitical interest. Shepherded around without autonomy, being told by entities that it is safe to go back now, being used and then thrown away.

How safe is it to be repatriated really? How much has been forgotten?

The Vietnam War ended in 1976. It has been at least 30 years. Babies born in refugee camps are now adults and would consider the area that they reside in, home. There have been accounts of brutal treatments after repatriation. It is possible that stories could have been made up because refugees simply don't want to be uprooted and repatriated.

Refugees may also not want to be repatriated because there is a chance that they can be granted refugee status in developed countries. There could be one or two who wouldn't mind telling a horror story so that they can move on to the U.S. Mind you, I am just speculating. Undeniably, refugees face a tremendous amount of stress and pressure with a life of restriction and uncertainty.

That brings to mind the issue of human rights, which I have always found to be a bucket of hogwash under close scrutiny.

Whose rights do you uphold? Don't the Hmongs have a right to a healthy life and mind free from threats? Yet these same rights infringe upon the rights of the Thais. Don't the Thais have a right to their land and a peaceful, healthy life free from stress too?

On a sidenote, as recent as 2007, a plot of Hmongs planning to overthrow the Lao government was discovered and there are still resistance efforts by the Hmongs in Lao. Looking back on the efforts made to crush the ethnic group, it would be nothing short of a miracle if they ever succeed.

How much responsibility do the countries involved in a war half a century ago have? How long do they need to continue the obligations for, especially when a problem like this does not have an easy solution.

I guess sometimes all the options are wrong and we just have to do what we believe is needed. If a clash ensues, all we can hope for is that the end result will be one of lesser evil and we are strong enough to weather the storm and shoulder the consequences, hoping that in time, people will forget. If nothing else, we are pretty good at that.

Monday, December 21, 2009

[ Book review ]: Refugee Manipulation



Since World War II, refugee organizations have faced a recurrent challenge: the manipulation of refugees by warring parties to further their own aims. Some armies in civil wars, facing military defeat, use refugees as assets to establish the international legitimacy of their cause, treat refugee camps as sanctuaries and recruitment pools, and limit access to refugees to ensure that they will not repatriate.

Focusing on the geopolitical security environment surrounding militarized camps and the response of humanitarian agencies, the contributors to this volume examine the ways armed groups manipulate refugees and how and why international actors assist their manipulation. They then offer suggestions for reducing the ability of such groups to use the suffering of refugees to their own advantage.

The contributors examine three cases: Cambodian refugees along the Thai border in the 1970s and 1980s, Afghan refugees in Pakistan in the 1980s and 1990s, and Rwandan refugees in Eastern Zaire from 1994-96. They argue that refugee manipulation occurs because warring parties gain resources in their fight for power and other actors--often the host government and regional and major powers--encourage and support it. Manipulation is allowed to occur because the international refugee regime and major states have not identified a consistent approach to stopping it. In the post-Cold War era the United Nations and its members have chosen to treat the issue as a humanitarian problem instead of a security problem.

As the contributors make clear, however, manipulation of refugees has important ramifications for international security, turning some civil wars into larger protracted regional wars. They argue that the geopolitics of refugee manipulation leads to sanguine conclusions about stopping it. Solutions must change the moral, political, and strategic calculations of states that are implicated in the manipulation. As long as the problem is not deemed a security threat, refugee organizations must choose between assistance that prolongs war or walking away from millions who deserve help.

Contributors include Howard Adelman (York University), Frederic Grare (Centre des Sciences Humaines, New Delhi), Margaret McGuinness (Paul, Weiss, Rifkind, Wharton, and Garrison), Stephen John Stedman (Stanford University), Fred Tanner (Geneva Centre for Security Policy), and Daniel Unger (Northern Illinois University).


Sometimes, we cannot return to innocence no matter how hard we try. Refugee Manipulation is a such a book that allows readers to see things in a different light. The book examines three main refugee crisis. The Cambodian refugees in Thailand, the Afghan refugees in Pakistan and the Rwandan refugees in Zaire.

When I was very young, I naively believed that when people didn't help in times of crisis, it was because they lack the information to or perhaps they couldn't. When I got older, in the case of Rwanda, I thought that the UN failed to act because nobody had any vested interest in that country. It is not that simple.

When it came to Cambodia, I thought that it was the expulsion of foreigners and the unawareness of political leaders regarding the seriousness of the situation that led to the disturbing conditions. I thought that the issue of refugees were simple. I was vastly wrong.

Sometimes the UN finds itself in a difficult situation because refugee camps may sometimes be places where warring parties regroup to prolong conflict and rendering aid to the camps pave the way for more unrest. Withdrawing aid on the other hand is not humanitarian. Yet it is not easy to control food and aid distribution. One may distribute food to children and women but who is to stop men from laying hands on them?

The UN may also be a group of countries but it is not above politics. Sometimes refugees are forced to cluster in a certain area, typically near borders so that they can form a buffer against further expansion. Such was the case for Cambodians seeking refuge in Thailand. I already knew parts of it from earlier readings but I had not managed to piece anything together. As I am not a History major and am still doing leisure reading, my knowledge may not be entirely correct but I would attempt to give my little perspective garnered so people may understand why this book is an insightful read.

The Cold War was a difficult era. Simply put it, it was between the capitalist and communist countries.To summarise what I know and recall from all sorts of books and readings over the years, Vietnam, Lao and Cambodia used to be a French colony. The area was called Indochine. However in politics, there are no permanent friends. In fact, as I know more about how politics work, I don't think friends is apt. It is more of the case where there are no permanent allies. Between countries, there is no 'feel-good' factor to maintain relationships, the only consideration is interest.

After the end of World War II, Indochine was eventually granted independence (after much difficulty and fighting). Of course, with any emerging nations, the question of political ideology would be first and foremost. Colonial masters seem to like dividing nations. Somehow or rather, (for simplicity sake) North Vietnam was communist-backed and South Vietnam was capitalist-backed since a communist-dominated region wouldn't be good for America's interest.

The Soviet Union who was supposed to be chummy with China due to certain reasons that I shall not go into here, wasn't any more. China found itself surrounded by no political friends. USSR was on top. On the East side, there was Japan. Not to mention, North and South Korea was probably having a similar problem around that time. Let's leave out countries on the West of China, such as India. Communist Vietnam was chummier with the USSR than China. I knew that from before. It is thus not surprising when I happened to read that China sold weapons to Cambodian refugees so that they could rise up against the Vietnamese.

(I was too lazy to find a better map but Cambodia is right under Lao, between Vietnam and Thailand. Anyway Viet forces were also pushing its way into Lao)



What better than refugee camps to breed dissent? Such was also the case in Rwanda, perhaps more so.

When all was worried about Vietnamese expansion in Southeast Asia, maybe on hindsight now after reading Refugee Manipulation, I shouldn't be so surprised after all that Thailand was willing to have Cambodians as a buffer at the border. After all, it also wouldn't do to have Cambodians feeling safe and comfortable and ending up drawing even more refugees into Thailand. What shocked me was the willingness and participation by many countries to keep refugees in refugees camps at the borders for their political interest through dangling food and aid. "In many cases, the Thai military put pressure on Cambodians to return to the border to join anti-Vietnamese resistance." (pg 44)

Conditions in refugee camps are more often than not, complicated, messy and dismal. Sometimes, Thai guards would even request women from the refugee camps. People often had not enough to eat. Most of the time, even if aid was rendered, they do not reach the needy. And yet, do you render aid, even if you suspect that the bulk of it is siphoned off by unethical middlemen and dealers or even to possible fighters, funding conflict or cut it off completely and have the refugees suffer?

And so when the United Nation High Commissioner for Refugees, UNHCR, found difficulty in balancing relief and that such actions was not in line with its aims and goals, another was eventually set up. Of course, when the question of possibility funding conflict arises, it would be a sensitive issue for any country (like Thailand or the US) to distribute aid. "The Joint Mission wanted out of its border roles that were provoking authorities in Phnom Penh, fueling black markets in aid goods along the border and helping combatants, including the Khmer Rouge. Concerned about international perceptions if the Thai military were solely responsible for distributing World Food Programe (WFP) food, both Thai and U.S. officials pressed the Joint Mission not to withdraw". (pg 40) Thus the United Nation Border Relief Operation, UNBRO was eventually set up. However, sometimes, neither the UNHCR nor the UNBRO had any access to such camps.

Sometimes it's not easy to render aid and I have more sympathy for the people who are tasked with the responsibility to decide whether their actions would benefit the needy especially since they are so often criticised.

Of course that was merely one case study but I am reluctant to discuss the insights I've garnered from the case study on Rwandan refugees in Zaire other than to say that the UN was slow to act and when it did, perhaps the Hutus refugees who fled into the camps were the perpetrators of the 1994 Tutsi genocide in Rwanda and it eventually affected another country, Zaire. The refugee camps turned into a breeding ground for the continuation of ethnic violence against the Tutsi in Zaire. Discussing this and recalling all my knowledge on the 1994 Rwanda crisis would require another extremely long blog entry. Just thinking about it is already tiring enough.

If anybody knows about the Afghanistan's-Pakistan refugee issue, that would be the third case study that may interest them. My knowledge on the Afghanistan and Soviet conflict is the least out of the three. However that is also another interesting issue to delve in. I was told by the father a long time ago that it was due to a need for a port. Of course it would be due to other reasons such as the need for natural resources.

All in all, like what a passage in the book would describe of the turmoil of having to make the right choice and I quote:

The international community was far from eager to aid the Khmer Rouge and might have done son less assiduously if presented an attractive alternative. Even the U.S. government was divided over whether it would be necessary to work with the Khmer Rouge to resist the Vietnamese in Cambodia. American officials were uncomfortable with their vote in the United Nations in 1979, torn between moral principles and international law" that also served U.S. security interests. Should they oppose ASEAN and China, and legitimate Vietnam's invasion?

U.S. Ambassador at Large for Refugee Affairs Victor Palmieri observed that while the United States was "revolted from a humanitarian standpoint" by the Khmer Rouge, it was "revolted from a political standpoint" by Vietnam. (pg 29)

When it comes down to humanitarian versus politics, politics almost always wins. The death of a million is after all just a statistic. Furthermore, the unimaginable is always worse. In politics, isn't it always better to sacrifice a few to curb the horrors that could befall on more?

And so, I was slightly amused when Clinton said that when it comes down to human rights issues, they can achieve more progress with some countries through closed door negotiations. Because a long time ago, I would have believed that. What is the difference between countries that are 'named-and-shamed' and countries you negotiate behind closed doors with? You happen to owe the latter a lot of money. U.S have been walking gingerly recently. That is the loss of innocence for you. You stop believing that countries are strong and mighty. You see more false fronts.

Speaking of which, I was vastly amused to read in the news today that Mr Obama barged in uninvited on a 'secret' meeting between leaders of China, India, South Africa and Brazil. But of course they say that he didn't.

Refugee manipulation is a book for realist. Sometimes altruism is but a political game.