迷魂

墓石生青苔
鼓聲敲碎回憶錄
回音一刻劃心
磨滅溫柔
不停問
誰又在遠方煙雨楚楚處?

(2010)

Bag of veined pulsing flesh

And then I feel like eating myself from the ankles up
so that I can turn myself inside out.
My humanity would be hidden with skin
while the world flees in terror
only to give me solitude within.

(2009)

On starting work in 2010

And so school for 2010 has started. I was relatively calmer compared to last year although I still lost sleep even though I didn't feel stressed at all.

After doing a stock check of my life, it is of great comfort to me to have an affirmation that I still love my job. However, these past few days, I've also realised that I love sleep more. Unfortunately, being a professional sleeper is not a recognised vocation.... and I do it so very well......

I hope that this year will be a good year, for one and all.

Repatriation of Hmongs

I was lounging on the chair idly, watching CNA when I caught sight of the scrolling words at the bottom of the screen. Thailand is planning to repatriate 4000 Hmongs back to Lao PDR. (Incidentally, it is not Laos but Lao PDR. There have been many gross misrepresentations of the name in the media. It would be good to not perpetuate it further if possible.)

Anyway, I was reading Refugee Manipulation not so long ago. 4000 refugees doesn't seem a lot when you compare it to a mass exodus of refugee in times of crisis. Two schools-worth of people, maybe?

When you are a refugee, you are meat. The term 'refugee' alone, grants you the status of a victim, you are merely waiting for a bully to appear. The Hmongs, now they are really a sad lot for an ethnic group.

After being recruited by the U.S to fight in the 'secret war' against the Vietnamese, the Hmongs are now 'betrayed' after dying for the U.S geopolitical interest. Shepherded around without autonomy, being told by entities that it is safe to go back now, being used and then thrown away.

How safe is it to be repatriated really? How much has been forgotten?

The Vietnam War ended in 1976. It has been at least 30 years. Babies born in refugee camps are now adults and would consider the area that they reside in, home. There have been accounts of brutal treatments after repatriation. It is possible that stories could have been made up because refugees simply don't want to be uprooted and repatriated.

Refugees may also not want to be repatriated because there is a chance that they can be granted refugee status in developed countries. There could be one or two who wouldn't mind telling a horror story so that they can move on to the U.S. Mind you, I am just speculating. Undeniably, refugees face a tremendous amount of stress and pressure with a life of restriction and uncertainty.

That brings to mind the issue of human rights, which I have always found to be a bucket of hogwash under close scrutiny.

Whose rights do you uphold? Don't the Hmongs have a right to a healthy life and mind free from threats? Yet these same rights infringe upon the rights of the Thais. Don't the Thais have a right to their land and a peaceful, healthy life free from stress too?

On a sidenote, as recent as 2007, a plot of Hmongs planning to overthrow the Lao government was discovered and there are still resistance efforts by the Hmongs in Lao. Looking back on the efforts made to crush the ethnic group, it would be nothing short of a miracle if they ever succeed.

How much responsibility do the countries involved in a war half a century ago have? How long do they need to continue the obligations for, especially when a problem like this does not have an easy solution.

I guess sometimes all the options are wrong and we just have to do what we believe is needed. If a clash ensues, all we can hope for is that the end result will be one of lesser evil and we are strong enough to weather the storm and shoulder the consequences, hoping that in time, people will forget. If nothing else, we are pretty good at that.

[ Book review ]: Refugee Manipulation

Since World War II, refugee organizations have faced a recurrent challenge: the manipulation of refugees by warring parties to further their own aims. Some armies in civil wars, facing military defeat, use refugees as assets to establish the international legitimacy of their cause, treat refugee camps as sanctuaries and recruitment pools, and limit access to refugees to ensure that they will not repatriate.

Focusing on the geopolitical security environment surrounding militarized camps and the response of humanitarian agencies, the contributors to this volume examine the ways armed groups manipulate refugees and how and why international actors assist their manipulation. They then offer suggestions for reducing the ability of such groups to use the suffering of refugees to their own advantage.

The contributors examine three cases: Cambodian refugees along the Thai border in the 1970s and 1980s, Afghan refugees in Pakistan in the 1980s and 1990s, and Rwandan refugees in Eastern Zaire from 1994-96. They argue that refugee manipulation occurs because warring parties gain resources in their fight for power and other actors--often the host government and regional and major powers--encourage and support it. Manipulation is allowed to occur because the international refugee regime and major states have not identified a consistent approach to stopping it. In the post-Cold War era the United Nations and its members have chosen to treat the issue as a humanitarian problem instead of a security problem.

As the contributors make clear, however, manipulation of refugees has important ramifications for international security, turning some civil wars into larger protracted regional wars. They argue that the geopolitics of refugee manipulation leads to sanguine conclusions about stopping it. Solutions must change the moral, political, and strategic calculations of states that are implicated in the manipulation. As long as the problem is not deemed a security threat, refugee organizations must choose between assistance that prolongs war or walking away from millions who deserve help.

Contributors include Howard Adelman (York University), Frederic Grare (Centre des Sciences Humaines, New Delhi), Margaret McGuinness (Paul, Weiss, Rifkind, Wharton, and Garrison), Stephen John Stedman (Stanford University), Fred Tanner (Geneva Centre for Security Policy), and Daniel Unger (Northern Illinois University).

Sometimes, we cannot return to innocence no matter how hard we try. Refugee Manipulation is a such a book that allows readers to see things in a different light. The book examines three main refugee crisis. The Cambodian refugees in Thailand, the Afghan refugees in Pakistan and the Rwandan refugees in Zaire.

When I was very young, I naively believed that when people didn't help in times of crisis, it was because they lack the information to or perhaps they couldn't. When I got older, in the case of Rwanda, I thought that the UN failed to act because nobody had any vested interest in that country. It is not that simple.

When it came to Cambodia, I thought that it was the expulsion of foreigners and the unawareness of political leaders regarding the seriousness of the situation that led to the disturbing conditions. I thought that the issue of refugees were simple. I was vastly wrong.

Sometimes the UN finds itself in a difficult situation because refugee camps may sometimes be places where warring parties regroup to prolong conflict and rendering aid to the camps pave the way for more unrest. Withdrawing aid on the other hand is not humanitarian. Yet it is not easy to control food and aid distribution. One may distribute food to children and women but who is to stop men from laying hands on them?

The UN may also be a group of countries but it is not above politics. Sometimes refugees are forced to cluster in a certain area, typically near borders so that they can form a buffer against further expansion. Such was the case for Cambodians seeking refuge in Thailand. I already knew parts of it from earlier readings but I had not managed to piece anything together. As I am not a History major and am still doing leisure reading, my knowledge may not be entirely correct but I would attempt to give my little perspective garnered so people may understand why this book is an insightful read.

The Cold War was a difficult era. Simply put it, it was between the capitalist and communist countries.To summarise what I know and recall from all sorts of books and readings over the years, Vietnam, Lao and Cambodia used to be a French colony. The area was called Indochine. However in politics, there are no permanent friends. In fact, as I know more about how politics work, I don't think friends is apt. It is more of the case where there are no permanent allies. Between countries, there is no 'feel-good' factor to maintain relationships, the only consideration is interest.

After the end of World War II, Indochine was eventually granted independence (after much difficulty and fighting). Of course, with any emerging nations, the question of political ideology would be first and foremost. Colonial masters seem to like dividing nations. Somehow or rather, (for simplicity sake) North Vietnam was communist-backed and South Vietnam was capitalist-backed since a communist-dominated region wouldn't be good for America's interest.

The Soviet Union who was supposed to be chummy with China due to certain reasons that I shall not go into here, wasn't any more. China found itself surrounded by no political friends. USSR was on top. On the East side, there was Japan. Not to mention, North and South Korea was probably having a similar problem around that time. Let's leave out countries on the West of China, such as India. Communist Vietnam was chummier with the USSR than China. I knew that from before. It is thus not surprising when I happened to read that China sold weapons to Cambodian refugees so that they could rise up against the Vietnamese.

(I was too lazy to find a better map but Cambodia is right under Lao, between Vietnam and Thailand. Anyway Viet forces were also pushing its way into Lao)

What better than refugee camps to breed dissent? Such was also the case in Rwanda, perhaps more so.

When all was worried about Vietnamese expansion in Southeast Asia, maybe on hindsight now after reading Refugee Manipulation, I shouldn't be so surprised after all that Thailand was willing to have Cambodians as a buffer at the border. After all, it also wouldn't do to have Cambodians feeling safe and comfortable and ending up drawing even more refugees into Thailand. What shocked me was the willingness and participation by many countries to keep refugees in refugees camps at the borders for their political interest through dangling food and aid. "In many cases, the Thai military put pressure on Cambodians to return to the border to join anti-Vietnamese resistance." (pg 44)

Conditions in refugee camps are more often than not, complicated, messy and dismal. Sometimes, Thai guards would even request women from the refugee camps. People often had not enough to eat. Most of the time, even if aid was rendered, they do not reach the needy. And yet, do you render aid, even if you suspect that the bulk of it is siphoned off by unethical middlemen and dealers or even to possible fighters, funding conflict or cut it off completely and have the refugees suffer?

And so when the United Nation High Commissioner for Refugees, UNHCR, found difficulty in balancing relief and that such actions was not in line with its aims and goals, another was eventually set up. Of course, when the question of possibility funding conflict arises, it would be a sensitive issue for any country (like Thailand or the US) to distribute aid. "The Joint Mission wanted out of its border roles that were provoking authorities in Phnom Penh, fueling black markets in aid goods along the border and helping combatants, including the Khmer Rouge. Concerned about international perceptions if the Thai military were solely responsible for distributing World Food Programe (WFP) food, both Thai and U.S. officials pressed the Joint Mission not to withdraw". (pg 40) Thus the United Nation Border Relief Operation, UNBRO was eventually set up. However, sometimes, neither the UNHCR nor the UNBRO had any access to such camps.

Sometimes it's not easy to render aid and I have more sympathy for the people who are tasked with the responsibility to decide whether their actions would benefit the needy especially since they are so often criticised.

Of course that was merely one case study but I am reluctant to discuss the insights I've garnered from the case study on Rwandan refugees in Zaire other than to say that the UN was slow to act and when it did, perhaps the Hutus refugees who fled into the camps were the perpetrators of the 1994 Tutsi genocide in Rwanda and it eventually affected another country, Zaire. The refugee camps turned into a breeding ground for the continuation of ethnic violence against the Tutsi in Zaire. Discussing this and recalling all my knowledge on the 1994 Rwanda crisis would require another extremely long blog entry. Just thinking about it is already tiring enough.

If anybody knows about the Afghanistan's-Pakistan refugee issue, that would be the third case study that may interest them. My knowledge on the Afghanistan and Soviet conflict is the least out of the three. However that is also another interesting issue to delve in. I was told by the father a long time ago that it was due to a need for a port. Of course it would be due to other reasons such as the need for natural resources.

All in all, like what a passage in the book would describe of the turmoil of having to make the right choice and I quote:

The international community was far from eager to aid the Khmer Rouge and might have done son less assiduously if presented an attractive alternative. Even the U.S. government was divided over whether it would be necessary to work with the Khmer Rouge to resist the Vietnamese in Cambodia. American officials were uncomfortable with their vote in the United Nations in 1979, torn between moral principles and international law" that also served U.S. security interests. Should they oppose ASEAN and China, and legitimate Vietnam's invasion?

U.S. Ambassador at Large for Refugee Affairs Victor Palmieri observed that while the United States was "revolted from a humanitarian standpoint" by the Khmer Rouge, it was "revolted from a political standpoint" by Vietnam. (pg 29)

When it comes down to humanitarian versus politics, politics almost always wins. The death of a million is after all just a statistic. Furthermore, the unimaginable is always worse. In politics, isn't it always better to sacrifice a few to curb the horrors that could befall on more?

And so, I was slightly amused when Clinton said that when it comes down to human rights issues, they can achieve more progress with some countries through closed door negotiations. Because a long time ago, I would have believed that. What is the difference between countries that are 'named-and-shamed' and countries you negotiate behind closed doors with? You happen to owe the latter a lot of money. U.S have been walking gingerly recently. That is the loss of innocence for you. You stop believing that countries are strong and mighty. You see more false fronts.

Speaking of which, I was vastly amused to read in the news today that Mr Obama barged in uninvited on a 'secret' meeting between leaders of China, India, South Africa and Brazil. But of course they say that he didn't.

Refugee manipulation is a book for realist. Sometimes altruism is but a political game.

[Book review]: 1984

I've just finished the book 1984, by George Orwell.

To say it was thought-provoking was an understatement. Riddled with irony and witty phrases, intelligent ideas and insightful notions, there were points in the book where after coming across a page, a chapter, a sentence or even a phrase would infuse me with pure pleasure that would make me stop and just plain savour, indulging in the moment where my mind would be suspended till the waves of pleasure ceased.

I remember one particular moment when I happened to be on the MRT. I happened to look up and saw an opened door. Framed through the door were the quickened steps of people and then it turned quiet. For a split second, I didn't know where I was. It was the strangest feeling.

The first thought that came to me was, this is 2009. George Orwell predicted a world, more than half a century ago and though it never came to pass, how real it seemed. Before my head shimmered back into this reality, I was lost.

The thing about 1984 wasn't so much a description about a dystopian world should communism have won. There were times when everything exist in my head. I could understand 'doublethink'. I know what it is. 2 + 2 = 5. I saw it together with the protagonist. The mind can be moulded and it can be consciously moulded by the self.

That's the scariest part because I didn't know how many people out there could feel Winston's love for Big Brother when he died. The book was written in the third person narrative. Perhaps many were tortured with him but for some reason, I hope that many too, experienced Winston's death and love along with him although there was also a phrase in 1984, 'Sanity is not statistical' that tells me that my notion should be defenestrated.

I would re-read the book. As much as O'Brien read into Winston's mind, I wonder if Orwell have read into mine. How dark the book was. For a scenario that never came to pass, it could have been superficial or myopic. Yet it was not, it was also about the baser nature of humans and could I have lived in such a world and survive? I wouldn't know.

Yet what's galling wasn't about not knowing if I would follow the footsteps of the dredges of humanity, what struck me was, it was perfectly fine for everybody in the novel to have done what they did. Even if it was a boot stamping on a human face - forever.

Hey Jupiter

I recently re-discovered Tori Amos. I thought this part of the lyrics from Hey Jupiter held a certain resonance.


Thought we both could use a friend
To run to
And I thought I wouldn't have to keep
With you
Hiding

And I thought you'd see with me
You wouldn't have to be something new