Pickled 'Chu'

As I get older, amidst all the hustle and bustle in life, I realise I need a peaceful inlet, what people would commonly know as 'Chu' time.

I realise sometimes I don't quite fancy the notion of spending time with people with nothing but superficial topics. And yet that seem to be the only thing we can discuss. And sometimes a phrase is all I have to sum up the entire complicated stuff happening because with people I rarely meet up with, the last thing I want to do is to 'bitch'.

Even if it is allowed, I tend to hide the more exuberant vocal side. Somehow I am just not comfortable anymore with 'bitching' with those I was comfortable 'bitching' with before. Even if it is allowed and you are comfortable with 'bitching' somehow it just wouldn't do to introduce a negative topic into the conversation especially if nothing leads up to it.

I guess the whole point of this entry is I am indeed bugged by an issue. It ain't anything bad. It's just some confusing stuff that I have yet to see the light of. And no, I don't really want to talk about it with people because I don't think I want to hear what other people have to say. Because I'm concerned that it would affect my judgement and right now, I guess the thing I feel most comfortable with is my own judgement even if it is indeed mixed in with uncertainty.

Was with Nana and I was wondering if I should just talk to her. It then struck me that I don't really want to talk to people about it.

I just want to soak myself in some pickled 'Chu' time. But is it age? Or is it because when it comes to certain stuff I don't have anybody right to talk to anymore.

wherein I whine about work progress

To be done:

• One 1500-word essay complete with references, appendix, cover page
• One 2000-word essay complete with references, appendix, cover page
• One chemistry lesson plan complete with materials

+

• One reflection on microteaching (which I've forgotten)
  
  (-_-")
  
  Minus 1, add 1 = status quo
  
  ARGH !

I'm in deep shit again

I know I am down in deep shit when it comes to work, when:

1. Nana had free premiere tickets to the spin-off of Death Note for yesterday and I said I couldn't go. (I COULDN'T GO !!!!) You know if it was actually possible, I would have procrastinated any work..super obvious that I was at the end of my tether...
2. Nana had tickets to a another god-knows-what romantic comedy today and I couldn't go and my brain was so filled with other stuff that I forgot all about charging my handphone and missed her SMS.
3. HF messages if the peeps were free for a 团拜 on Sunday and all that came out of me was a rude SMS stating 'not free'
4. it didn't even strike to me that the SMS was rude until upon hindsight when I was so giddy from staring at the computer that I could no longer walk straight.

Sigh..."No !" to free movie tickets to premieres....TWICE in two days...Fantastic lor...

The worst thing is I have absolutely no idea how to write the 2 essays that sums up to be 3500 words in total. But at least I handed in the test construction for Maths today and got 2 presentations over and done with.

2 essays + 1 lesson plan to be completed by Wednesday. Aiming to finish on Monday.